Kitty goes purrrrrrr.

My cat is sleeping right on my head.
It is hard to see and type.
I can't fall asleep.
I have work tomorrow at 12...
but alas, I am not asleep.
Oh well.
I am working at the Ice Cream Sundae place tomorrow.
That should be fun.
I wish people would not be so crazy.
Like I wish, I could understand you better.
Or you would let me in more...
I might have met a boy.
Hmm, more on that later.
I've only told one person.
I'll keep it that way...
I'm going to pass out now.
P.S... I no longer hate Facebook!
I actually love it.
After the myspace fiasco tonight....
I now loathe myspace.

I got a job!

I now work at the
Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk.
Whoop Whoop.
I start training tomorrow
and then start work on saturday.
I am excited!

Breathe in Pink... Exhale Blue.

It's raining it's pouring
my dumb ass cat is snoring.
When I arrived home tonight
a gigantic spider was hanging from
the stairway outside my front door.
UGH.
I mean huge.
Atleast 1.5 inches long.
It's legs were all sprawled out and yucky.
In general, it was just disgusting.

Another generality....
People need to calm down.
Stop worrying so much.
It freaks me out.
If you would just breathe,
calm down and go with the flow.
Life would get better.
Don't sweat the small stuff,
and don't worry about every little thing.
Occupy yourself with thoughts of... well yourself.
When you stop worrying about others, things will fall into place
and then you can put an effort to helping others.
The ones that actually need your help, not the ones,
who you think need your help.
If they want it, they will ask.
If they don't, don't take offense.
Go with the flow man.
Breathe.
Smell the flowers.
Listen to the ocean... or W/E is in your area....Sirens....birds...cats.
Life's a garden dig it.
You just need to RELAX.
You are going to have a stroke... or a major meltdown.

My W33kend.

Well an old friend came to visit.
I walked 5 miles to the beach on saturday.
Shouldn't have been that far... I got lost.
I was in flip-flops the whole time.
That resulted in a huge blister on my foot.
Wearing shorts to the beach.
That resulted in the the back of my legs being
sunburnt pretty bad... very hard to sit.
Should have worn sunblock.
Went to a Demolay installation.
That was nifty!
Congrats EDDIE! OMG what a hottie! haha.
Too young though. Can't touch that... dun nun nun na na~!
Sunday, walked from the lighthouse halfway to Natural Bridges.
Got a few more miles under my belt for the weekend.
It was beautiful. Great way to spend the day.
No we did not smoke... yes it is Santa Cruz.
No we did not partake.
We did however spend time with Nature that day to reflect.
I hiked up these rocky cliff things... once again..
in FLIP-FLOPS.
I cut my toe open. Here is how it went.

*Nicole climbs down staircase to the beach
Mike and anthony follow.
We walk across tide pools, up a little ledge.
Anthony and Mike take off and climb the rocks down to the shore.
They leave Nicole for 15 minutes.
Nicole thinks they will be back
They come from behind.
Down the staircase I originally took to get to the beach mind you.
They had made a big circle....
They say lets go...
I get up to go back to the stairs...
they tell me the city has blocked the stairs off with red wire
and it is illegal to take it down.
We must climb the rocks to the thin sandy trail....
UGH.
I hate heights...
I have horrible balance
and I was in FLIP FLOPS.
So we start climbing these rocks,
Above the ocean...
could have fallen to my death (over dramatizing... just a little)
Finally make it up,
ANthony is all MR. Balance, no hands let me help you!
We make it up to the road.
Mike says, well if you are going to Africa you have to get ready.
That was lesson one for the Peace Corps.
Are you ready for lesson two?
I say sure.
He replies, " just remember, it is not your fucking country."
Then he ranted about not getting and America is better than you complex
while out of the country.
So we turn around and begin our mile hike back to the car...
we pass the stairs I originally took to get to the beach.
NO RED WIRE.
They just wanted me to climb the rocks.
Jerks.
But it was worth it.
My legs were sore yesterday.
But I can't wait to go hike again.
Maybe I will go explore by myself tomorrow.

A cloudy Day.

I need to raise 4,000 dollars!
I found a volunteer program for 8 months.
It is located in Kampala.
I just need to raise the funds.
Lets start a send Nicole to Africa foundation.
I wouldn't even hesitate to leave.
Just pick up and go.
Ciao.
See you in a year... (7months)
Peace.
I applied for the program and
a scholarship.
That would be fantastic.
Goodbye to the shit hole that is America,
hello to Africa. The land that needs our help.

Oh and P.S....
FREE TIBET!
hahaa

Home for a week.

I went back to Lancaster
for a week.
I got her last Saturday
and I am going home tomorrow morning.
It was refreshing to be home for
a little bit, but that is all that I
can take. There are definitely more people
here that I can hang out with, and that
actually WANT to chill. As opposed to
forgetting that I exist...hmmm.
Isn't it nice, when people act oblivious,
and forget you... I just love it!
So anyways, while I was home,
I had a sleepover of the younger girls in rainbow.
I took all the little kids to the poppy preserve.
OMG. It is absolutely beautiful this year.
I worked at the job fair today. OMG. I had to
get up wicked early, but in th end it was ok.
I got to see a lot of my old friends.

But alas I return to Santa Cruz tomorrow!
Farewell Lancaster, Hello Earth Day!
I will definitelyct post you on the happenings
of this weekend. There is going to be
a festival in SC and that should be fun!!!!

haha Smirnoff Ice!

Drunk Survey
1. Have you ever been drunk?
Hahah, I totally am now.

2. How old were you the first time you got drunk?
Umm, I was in Rosamond and had 8 shots of vodka. 15 years old... they started me young. No bueno.

3. Have you ever gotten/given digits while intoxicated?
Yeah, once someone wrote their number on my arm while I was asleep.

4. Have you ever 'drunk dialed'?
Umm I am sure I have...

5. Have you ever been drunk in front of family members?
Yes... I have thrown many parties at my house.

6. Have you ever had to cover up the fact that you were drunk?
Yes, I said I got hit in the head with a weight while at the gym.

7. Have you ever been arrested for any alcohol-related crime?
Well, once I got in trouble by a cop for having a beer in my hand... outside the house. but they just let me go.

8. Have you ever hooked-up with someone while drunk?
Haha, ask my ex!

9. Ever forgot their name?
No...

10. When was the last time you were drunk?
Ummm like 30 seconds ago. hahahaha

11. Have you ever been on a drunken binge?
No. I don't know what that is.

12. Do you need alcohol to have a good time?
Not at all.

13. What kind of alcohol gets you the most intoxicated?
Umm rum. Or Jaggermeister.

14. Favorite liquor?
Fruity Rum

15. Favorite beer?
Gross.... Smirnoff Ice please.

16. Have you ever woken up after a night of drinking and found out that you are STILL drunk?
Yes indeed.

17. Have you ever swam drunk?
No, Sounds dangerous.

18. What kind of a drunk are you?
A happy, over friendly one.

19. Is alcohol like "truth serum" to you?
No.

20. Favorite drinking partner?
Umm currently miss MJ!

21. Favorite bar?
My own house...

22. Have you ever completely blacked out?
No I don't think so.

23. Have you ever puked from drinking?
Yeah... I have. Yuck.

24. Have you ever had the 'crying drunks'?
NO, and I don't want to...

25. Can you still do physical activity while intoxicated?
Yes... ahhahah yes I can ;)

26. Have you ever gotten into a drunken fight?
Umm once I threw my brother onto the couch but he was way drunker than I was and being a complete asshole....

27. Who is the most annoying drunk that you know?
Well that depends, My brother can get pretty bad, but in a funny way and uhh there are a bunch of different things.

28. Who is the most flirtatious drunk?
Umm Emily lol.

29. Do you have a drunken nickname?
The DIZZ!

30. Have you received a 'booty call'
HAHAHA. At the pirate party lol..


31. Funniest drunken scene in a movie
Ummmmm I have never been in a movie while drunk...

32. Favorite song about drinking?
Flogging Molly, drinking games.

33. Have you ever woke up next to someone you didn't know?
No, that would be weird.

34. Have you ever been hit on by someone way older than you?
Totally, haha like he was 36 or something gross and I was like ugh, no thank you.

35. What's the worst 'buzz kill'?
Umm, well stupid drunks.

36. Have you ever dated a bartender or bouncer?
Nope... but there is a first for everything!

37. Do you ever say to yourself, "Dang, I need a drink"?
No.

38. Do strangers ever buy you drinks?
No, I dont go to bars.

39. Have you ever drank too much on a date?
Nope.

40. Is there anything that you refuse to drink?
Whiskey.... yuck

41. Have you ever been drunk on a plane?
hahan o that would be illegal.

42. Have you ever gotten drunk during the day?
Nope.

43. Have you ever had to run from the cops and leave the beer behind?
haha no.

44. What's your favorite drinking game?
Kings cup baby!

45. Have you ever injured yourself while drunk?
Umm someone else has injured me! lol.

46. What's the most destructive thing that has happened while you were drunk?
Ummm kevin once ran into a fire hydrant and cut his leg open.

47. Ever been drunk at a concert?
Yes and then we filmed a music video in the parking lot afterwards hardcore dancing!!!!

48. Is this survey getting too long?
Well since the computer is kinda of spinning.

49. Are you ready for the last question?
Sure.

50. Why do you drink?
Well MJ and I were like what the hell are we doing tonight and someone was like well why don't we drink. So we did! Fo sho!
Jiggy Jiggy what what!

As the times change.

Have you ever realized that the older you get,
the worse life get.
Now, not in all aspects. Just one in particular.
The year after I graduated High School is when
I began to realized that as we grow closer to life
we also grow closer to death.
My best friends grandma died when I was in high school
and before that, I had never known anybody personally
that I had to attend a funeral for.
The rest of my high school years went by
w/o anything else happening.
Now as I look back since graduation, so many
of our friends have passed away.
In the last six months alone 5 people
I know have died.
Kids I went to school with, A mentor to IORG, an innocent kid.
It just seems, that in the great wide working of things...
why the hell does shit like this happens.
Girl commits suicide.... well thats what the rumor was.
Remember you said you knew what happened... wrong.
She died from huffing shit that came from her air conditioner.
2 Kids die in a car accident... in the last month alone.
1 amazing lady loses the hardest battle of her life.
This I find the most unfair.
Why make somebody suffer through so much and work so hard
to be taken in the end.
What was the point.
But up a good fight, but on a good face, but in the end.
You're gone.
I am just so sick of everything.
It all drives me crazy.
I will move to an island and live by myself... then not have to worry about it.
But that wouldn't work because, I talk to much and would get bored....
Then where the hell would I be.

So anyways.... in the end
before this turned into some morbid rant.
I just wanted to say, take the time to tell people that
you love them. Time passes too quickly and you might miss the opportunity.

The Tudors.

Oh my lord, isn't that man gorgeous?
He plays Henry the 8th on the Tudors!
He is super hot and they show sleazy sex scenes
between him and Ann Boleyn, but my god he is hot!
It is on showtime and if you have the channel I highly
suggest the program!
It is currently in it's second season.
My friend Emily had all of the episodes saved
on her DVR and we watched all of season 1 and
the 3 new episodes in season 2. I am addicted.
If you can't get to a tv to watch... atleast check out
some picks! He is a hottie and that is just the beginning!

Because it's 4a.m and I can't sleep...

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?:
Nope, I walked away.



Does someone love you?:
Well, like, my family.


Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?:
No. Hate's too much work.



How's your heart lately?:
Safely inside my chest.



The last song you listened to?:
"Santa Carla Twilight"- Tiger Army!
Man oh Man are those guy hot.



If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
Maybe like starflower. That would be cool. Or just a symbol like Prince.



Are you afraid of falling in love?
I'm afraid to open up to love.


Favorite juice?
Cran-Razz.



Have you had the chicken pox?:
Yeah, when I was hella young.



Ever been to Mexico?:
No...

Are you a forgiving person?:
Somewhat. I think I forgive to easily.



Are you talking to someone while doing this?:
No... it's 3:45 am.


What school plays were you part of in elementary school?
In elementary school, we did tons of wave shows and I was in a lot of them. I also did countless dance recitals back then.




If a bear attacked you, would you know how to defend yourself?
Umm run away or have somebody like karate chop it....



Do you think it would be more fun to model or to shoot the photographs?
Taking the Pics would be hella fun.



Are you younger than 21?:
Yeah.... 1.5 years.



Do you like fruit?
My favorite.



How clean is your room?:
I cleaned my studio on Friday, so it is pretty nice.



What are you excited for?:
Summer. And vacations. The beach up here is bomb. Oh and Earth Day is coming up. That should be ballin.



Do you have feelings for someone?
I currently Loathe my cat....

Do you fall for guys/girls easily?:
Yeah, and then I move on quickly. Bad news bears.



Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?:
No, that'd be pretty odd.



What do you currently want to scream at the top of your lungs?
Hah, ummmm "I'm Rick James Bitch"


Do you think that hair extensions look skanky?:
I think they're, ugh a waste of money.



Say you were given a pregnancy test right now?
It would be negative. No babies on the way.



Favorite pop-tart flavor?
Umm, strawberry.


Do you know anyone in jail/prison?:
Umm idk.



What book are you reading right now?..
I am in the middle of like four novels.



Favorite kind of candy?
things that are fruity.



What did you do yesterday?:
I hungout w/ ant and Mandi and went to downtown and we got anthony a new bike!!!


What jewelry are you wearing?:
My lip ring.



If all your friends were going on a road trip, would you go?:
Why the hell not.
That would be wicked fun!


Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?:
I only wear flipflops...


Have you ever crawled through a window?:
The good old days! Back when I lived in the AV.



Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?:
No, I don't have cable.



Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle?
Oh most definitely lol


What were you doing at 12am last night?
Talking on the phone.

You Say you want a Revolution.... but you aren't willing to change your ways.

Did you know that:
1. 1 Billion people live off of one dollar a day in our world.

2. It would cost 12 billion dollars a year for every child on earth to go to school.

3. We spend 18 billion on makeup each year.

4. We also spend 40 billion on golf...

5. We waste 400 billion on cigarettes.

But we cant cough up 12 billion to educate our youth.
Think of the enormous difference we could make
by helping out these kids.
Educated them about sanitation and disease prevention.
Help teach them how to clean water and how to live.
But you go on and worry about buying new shit for your house
or tanning by the pool... fuck the kids that are dying out there.
I bet you didn't even know it was the NWSA.
National week of Student Action.
Did you do anything?

I'm not high and mighty,
and I too have fallen victim to the trap of conformity.
It is easier to forget and go on with our lives
than worry about the lives of others.
It is becoming harder for me to forget though.
I am reminded daily of the work that needs to be done.
I can't wait to get to help hands on.
1 year and counting.

fire and ice.

Things on my mind...

1. A quote my speech teacher use to say. "the choices we make dictate the lives we lead. To thine own-self be true." - William Shakespeare.

2. You get angry if I leave you out, but you constantly forget me.

3. The cute and forgetful thing only gets you so far...
before it is annoying and asshole-like.

4. Why do you have to be in control? Just let it go. Calm down.

5. I can only take the ADD in small quantities.

6. Your selfishness really drives me crazy.

7. You aren't the same person you were 6 months ago...

8. Why did we all have to grow apart?

9. Let _______ think for themselves.

10. You don't have to do everything suggested.

11. A revolutionary must have their OWN voice... and speak it.

12. I download 1500 songs because nobody wants to hang out and I am bored.

13. At least at home I had people to hangout w/ every night! ahaha

14. I really hate the old grand deputy of our new area.

15. My lip ring is killing me.

16. Ohana means family and family means nobody gets left behind.

17. Speak up please... it's hard to hear you....

18. I wish I could get tickets to Taste of Chaos but they are too spendy for my budget.

19. I have to go home for a funeral.

20. You are so wrapped up in your lives to even notice that mine is sucking recently. But oh well what can I expect from you... oh that's right, nothing. ahhhh

Oh well. that is my dumb ass rant. Take no notice of it and don't post bitchy comments because it probably has nothing to do with you. then again maybe it does.... but probably not so just get over it. I already did. Move on!